radicalducati Chapter 132 Contradictions
Chapter 132 Contradictions
Seeing that Chen Ping was still a little confused, Lu Zixuan continued to explain:
"Look, one of us is a woman and the other is a child, but we frequently receive credit and have a good income. What will people around us think?
Why do a couple, a woman and a child, live better than me and get so much credit?
People won't care how much you give, they only see what you get.
Whether it is out of jealousy or the desire to compare, they will definitely think that we used abnormal means to get it.
At that time, our disaster will come. They will continue to create conflicts and pressure for us until our lives are worse than theirs.
This is the psychology of comparison, hating others for having more and laughing at others for not having more. This is also the reason why I have always kept our family low-key.
Why were you framed a few years ago? It was because others knew your real income and assets, which aroused their jealousy and dissatisfaction.
One day, when you become a towering tree, they will only admire and envy you, without any jealousy or hatred, because they cannot catch up with you even if they flatter you.
Look at the Zheng family. When they were in the yard, they wore patched clothes and ate processed coarse grains that they exchanged with us. They didn't show off.
Apart from Yan Bugui who occasionally goes to take advantage of him, who visits his house?
Now, they live in high-end government buildings and wear ready-made clothes from imported stores.
Because they have escaped from the circle of poverty and entered another class, they will be despised and excluded as before.
So I choose the benefits that everyone can see, and distribute them equally so that everyone can have a share.
As for the benefits that they cannot see, we accept them with pleasure. You can see that most of the people in this yard are like this.”
Cheng Xiaoman noticed that He Yuzhu had been absent-mindedly listening to Lu Zixuan's high-sounding talk. So she reminded him:
"Zhu Zi, are you still wondering what's wrong? You haven't figured it out after all this time? No wonder my sister said Yu Shui often called you silly brother.
Let’s go to Yu Shui’s room, and I’ll tell you how my cowardly brother treats the man who covets his wife.
Sister, you guys take a rest. I will go to Yushui's room to sleep today."
After He Yuzhu and his wife left, Chen Ping hesitated for a long time before speaking:
"Son, let's talk. Um, how should I say this...
Lao Tong introduced me to a man who was two years older than me. He was Lao Tong’s nephew and had never been married.
"Aren't all of Old Tong's family members gone? How did a nephew suddenly appear? How is your relationship going?"
Lu Zixuan interrupted Chen Ping and asked in confusion.
“I don’t know about this either. I’ve been in contact with him for about a month. He is still in the army and may be transferred to the Northeast soon.
Lao Tong wants us to go with him, and Lao Tong wants to go too, saying that he can take care of us. I want to ask for your opinion."
Chen Ping timidly asked Lu Zixuan for his opinion.
"First of all, I said when we first got here that I would not get involved in your emotional issues. It's not that I don't want to, but I can't.
Everyone has the right to make their own choices, and I never interfere, including you. What I want to see most is that you can live comfortably and freely.
You don’t need to consider my feelings, as long as you feel good.”
Lu Zixuan's attitude is still not to participate.
Chen Ping said anxiously.
"How can this be? I just feel that you are too tired. You are so young..."
Lu Zixuan interrupted Chen Ping's remarks which were for his own good.
"Mom, I'm going to say something unpleasant, please don't be too sad.
Don't make excuses, don't make any choice under the guise of doing it for my own good. I will not take any responsibility for the path you choose.
I remember when I was just able to walk, I told you that when you meet the right person, just tell me.
I will not be a stumbling block to you, but I won't be a help either. Just treat your son as a grown-up, flying in the sky.
Since you asked for my opinion, I will make it clear that I will have my own life and you have yours. Do you understand? "
Chen Ping's eyes were filled with tears as she tried her best to explain.
"Son, I really can't live without you. We have depended on each other for so many years, and I'm used to it. I can't leave you."
"No one in this world is inseparable from anyone else. If I leave you due to an accident one day, you will still have to rely on yourself.
The earth will still turn without anyone. Mom, let's stop making excuses, it's meaningless.
It's not about anyone, no matter who you are with, I will make the same choice. I will always stay by your side because you have no one else to rely on except me.
Now that you have someone to rely on, I must choose my own life.
If it was Lao Tong who introduced the person to you, then he should have already told you, so there is no need to persuade me.
OK, I'm going back to rest."
Chen Ping was left alone sitting on a stool, thinking back to the days she spent with her son...
When Lu Zixuan woke up again, it was already noon. He walked out of the cubicle, preparing to feed himself, when he suddenly saw someone sitting at the table.
Lu Zixuan was so scared that he hurriedly took off his shoes and threw them over, hitting the man on the head.
Without even bothering to see if he had hit her, he rushed towards the chopping board to grab the kitchen knife.
"Hahaha, good boy, this is your gift to me. Come, sit here and chat."
The man caught the shoe thrown by Lu Zixuan, threw it on the ground, and called Lu Zixuan over with laughter.
"Get out! Didn't your mother teach you that you need permission to enter someone else's home?"
Lu Zixuan didn't say anything polite and just drove the man away.
The man stopped smiling and said, "I am..."
"Get out, and start swearing in the next sentence."
Lu Zixuan had a tough attitude.
"Okay, okay, I'll go out, okay?"
The man didn't hesitate any longer and went out immediately.
When the man said the first sentence, Lu Zixuan already knew that he was Lao Tong's nephew, and he felt inexplicably angry.
I walked to the table, put on my shoes, and was so angry that I was no longer hungry. I went back to the cubicle and changed my socks.
I walked to the door again and saw him still standing there.
"Go away and tell Lao Tong that I wish him a bad death."
"You little bastard, keep your mouth shut..."
"Go away, you have no right to speak."
Before the man could finish his words, Lu Zixuan scolded him back.
"Okay, little bastard, you'll suffer in the future."
After saying these harsh words, the man left.
Lu Zixuan ignored it and pulled open the bolt to check. Looking at the large handprint on the dusty door, he knew that the door wasn't even knocked.
Lu Zixuan was so angry that he ran straight to the grain station. When he got there, he pushed open Chen Ping's office door and said straight to the point:
"I've met Lao Tong's nephew, he's a terrible person. Either you move out, or I move out. I won't live with you for another day.
If you want to know the details, go find your lover and tell him not to appear in front of me anymore. I am leaving. "
Chen Ping immediately grabbed Lu Zixuan and refused to let him leave, insisting that he explain everything clearly. After Lu Zixuan explained everything clearly, he issued an ultimatum.
"If you don't move out within three days, I will. This is the first time I feel that your vision is negative. Goodbye."
After leaving, Lu Zixuan did not return to the courtyard. Since he came to this world, this was the first time he felt lonely, confused, frustrated, and…
There were so many firsts, full of loss and hesitation, standing at the crossroads, looking at the road under my feet, not knowing where it would lead to...