His Mate, His Girlfriend

Chapter 23. I Want To See Them

Ellis.

I was glaring at Love. She was fucking pushing me, the way she was interacting with David during lunch, and the way she was speaking so softly to calm him. I watched them leave the restaurant like the perfect couple, smiling. I was enraged. It should be me, not him. David Koffling didn't deserve a woman like Love.

' You didn't either,' Lias grumbled.

'Because you didn't choose her immediately, you took over and went to Charlotte!' I barked, tired of his judgment. He always blamed the loss of Love on me when he didn't tame the mate bond. Filled with guilt, he slithered back to the dark part of my mind. Charlotte held my hand, but I lost it and growled at her. She backed away from me in fear. Her lips started to quiver. She was about to cry, and I felt angrier that she cried in every situation.

" Don't dare do that," I warned. I ran a hand through my hair. I wanted to punch something.

" Why do you do this to me? You never loved me," she cried.

" Then fucking leave! I don't love you, I never did, but you stuck around knowing I was in love with another woman," I shouted, frustrated. I was on edge.

" Ellis, you know my wolf is too weak," she bellowed, wiping her tears clumsily.

" Then reject me, it might be easier."

" I can't do that, Ellis, I love you."

I love you, she said that all the time. What about me? I couldn't be in this loveless relationship. I was unhappy.

" It's a one-sided relationship. Can't you see how miserable I am?" I tried to reason with her. I held her shoulder and looked into her eyes.

" You want money, Charlotte? I'll give it to you, loads of it, but this needs to end," I bargained urgently. Her nose flared, showing her anger towards me for suggesting that.

" I'm not here for your money, Ellis. You're my mate, and I can't stay away from you without risking myself," she barked.

I needed to clear my head. I needed to go for a run, which always seemed to help me calm down. I took off from the restaurant, running a few miles before I reached the large forest of my pack.

This was the start of my fear, the fear of losing Love to another man. I couldn't live without her. My life was a mess without her in it. I felt like a programmed robot, designed to only work, but Love was back now, my saving grace, and I needed to get her back in my life, but before I did that, Charlotte had to go. I couldn't stay in this relationship any longer when I didn't love her.

I got back to my apartment in the late evening that day. Jace and Michael were there.

" Don't you have your own homes," I growled, going to the bar.

" We like it here," Michael grinned, gulping the drink in his hand as he looked in the mirror. Fixing his hair. Was there a man more concerned about his looks than him? We sat in the lounge,

" I think I need to see a dermatologist again," I heard Michael murmur. Jace and I gave him a look.

" what? I'm weird because I worry about my skin?" He shot back.

" Is that color below your eyelashes?" Jace asked, and Michael turned away.

" No," he grumbled.

I suddenly remembered David's reaction to the app being developed.

" Do you think David wanted the app for himself?" I asked.

"Of course, he did," they don't waste a beat on answering.

" He wants to buy back his shares, and the app would be the best way to go about it. Pitch it to an enemy company and sell it," Jace shrugged.

" Why didn't he just get it sooner though?" Michael asked.

" He didn't know he'd lose his company so abruptly, " I answered," he knew from the beginning that the app was good for the company, but they didn't have money to fund the project,"

" Is that why he is with Love?" Michael asked. It crossed my mind when I saw them together. Could it be he's after Love's money? I didn't answer.

" Do you have any information on Luis?" I asked Jace,

" It's Vague. All we could gather through difficult connections is that he was part of the Elite force at the Golden Stone Pack," He answered. The Elite force soldiers were the best of the best in the Lycan armies. They went on secret missions for the High Council office which my grandmother, CC, is part of. The Elite Force were spies and assassins. It was hard to believe Luis was one of them. His looks would throw off anyone and categorize him as a pretty playboy gamma.

The Elite force's real identities were top secret, and no one could have information on them because it would be dangerous because of the diplomatic assignments they undergo.

" An Elite Force Soldier? How good is he?" Michael asked.

" Top five best among all packs in the region," Jace answered.

As they discussed, my mind went back to those kids, his kids. Why did the little girl call me Daddy? She was sure and even cried. My heart tugged at her tears while the boy glared at me with a pout like I had killed his puppy. I wish I could see them again. I want to see them again.

Love.

I knocked off late from work today because I had many things to do. I talked to Lilac when I reached home, and she invited me for a drink, but I had to decline as I was too tired.

My little monsters were in a better mood. We were sleeping on my bed as I read them a story.

" Mommy," my son interrupted quietly.

" Yes, baby,"

" Why did Daddy say he doesn't know us?" he asked.

" Because of the drugs they gave him at Mars, and you had paint on your face," I tried to laugh it out. He turned to face me.

" Would you not recognize me if I had paint on my face?"

" I'd recognize you anywhere, but you have to understand Daddy. He was away for so long," I told him gently.

" Then why hasn't he come to see us," he asked.

" He's busy," I just wasn't ready to tell him the truth. My babies were so little.

" I wish I could see Daddy. Lara cries a lot these days,"

I stroked his hair and smiled sadly at him.