radicalducati 2.80
2.80
Lucas’s POV
I was on to her the second she left the room.
It was like I was somehow connected to her and my body immediately felt her absence from the room and alerted me to her sneaky escape.
I was slightly left disappointed to find her heading for the door and attempting to leave on her own. I thought I got to her before I drifted back to sleep, or she made me feel like I did.
I approached her slowly where she was still facing the front door, my temper a little flaring at the thought of losing her if I didn’t catch her in time and stopped her.
I trapped her in place by caging her with both arms against the door on either sides of her and leaned in next to her ear, her hair tickling my side cheek.
“Where do you think you’re going Angel?” I whispered coldly.
She turned around and faced me, her expression as stubborn as ever, no hint of pain or guilt at leaving me behind whatsoever.
“You left me no choice” she said flatly.
I leaned in close to her face and spoke darkly “What are you talking about? You have two perfect choices, run away with me or stay in Snow with me”
She glared at me “Yeah these aren’t choices I want to consider, Lucas. They both have one thing in common….you”
I tilted my head “What’s wrong with me being in your list of choices to consider?” I asked curiously.
She gave me a hard look and said forcibly “I don’t want you in my life anymore”
My nostrils flared at her words and my eyes gave her an icy cold look as I demanded in a hard tone “Say that again”
She gulped and said more reluctantly than before “I don’t want you….involved in my life Lucas”
“Why not?” I asked fiercely.
She bit her lip before she said slowly “Because…I don’t have any…feelings towards you”
“Liar” I hissed instantly while she flinched ever so slightly.
“It’s true” she whispered tightly.
My hand gripped her neck possessively and I tightened my hold on it, not enough to restrict her breathing but enough to convey my warning “Don’t fucking make me lose my shit on you, Angel! You already know how much I despise lying. Tell me the truth” I growled dangerously.
She was looking at me angrily now as she said calmly “Let go of my neck before I lose my shit on you”
“Not before you tell me the truth. Why do you want me to leave you alone?” I demanded.
“It’s the damn truth!” she yelled at me.
I hit the palm that was still trapping her in place against the door violently, causing a loud sound to erupt, which made her jump a little and close her eyes.
“Stop fucking testing me Angel. Patience is not my strongest suit” I threatened darkly and tightened my hold on her neck a little bit more.
She opened her eyes and said through gritted teeth “That’s the only truth I have to say to you. Show me your worst, Lucas, it won’t change my answer”
I’ve never met someone as stubborn as her before. She has a damn iron will when it comes to controlling her emotions. She’s the freaking queen of self control!
“Just let me go… please. It’s what I want. Doesn’t what I want matter to you?” she pleaded.
“Not when it possibly costs you your life, it doesn’t matter to me what you want then” I said tightly.
“It’s my damn life, Lucas! If it costs me then so be it” she tried to push at me but I wasn’t budging.
“It’s my damn life too, Angel! That’s what you keep refusing to believe dammit! I cannot lose you because I will end up losing myself in the process don’t you get it! I have feelings for you!! I’m falling head over heels in love with you. Why the hell won’t you let me in?” I snapped at her.
“Because I can’t lose you god dammit! I can’t lose another person I care about in front of my eyes, I just won’t!” she screamed at me in agony while her eyes teared up.
Then a second later, her eyes widened as she whispered in surprise “Wait… did you just…did you just say you…”
She couldn’t continue her sentence as she tried to comprehend what I said to her, which she only just gathered after she exploded on me in her own way.
She cares about me!
She fucking cares! I knew it! It might not have been the same heartfelt words I just confessed to her, but it was more than enough of a confirmation for me. Especially with that tone of sincerity and passion laced in her voice.
I let go of her neck and cupped her face tenderly with both hands.
“I’m falling in love with you Angel. And I’m not afraid to say it over and over and over again until you believe what you’re hearing, until you believe that I mean every single letter. You leave without me, my soul, my heart, my whole damn being stops living. You might as well just shoot me now anyway. You leave Angel, it will be you killing me…”
She put her palm on my mouth to silence me as she said in a thick, emotional voice while shaking her head “Don’t! Don’t say that Lucas, please! You can’t love me. I’ll bring nothing but trouble your way, I’m dangerous to be around Lucas”
“But that’s my favorite type of person to be around. The fact that I’m playing with fire by being in love with you. It keeps me alive. Your danger is not going to push me away from you Angel. I’m not sure anything ever will at this point. I’m in too deep to be scared away by anything or anyone. I’m already done for…when it comes to you” I said softly.
“I get it. That nightmare scared you to death. But you didn’t let me tell you how I’m going to make you beat the shit out of it and make it leave no trace of fear within you. You jumped the gun and decided to let it control you instead of you controlling it” I said intensely.
“How?” she asked doubtfully.
“You think I’m just going to let that nameless asshole get to the point of raising a knife on my mother, Angel? Apparently you still don’t know what I’m capable of. Trust me, if I was truly captured and kneeling next to her, that bastard would have been dead before he hits the ground. He’d be chocking on his own blood before I allow him to lay a finger on any of us. I always find a way to get myself out of any dangerous situation I find myself in and trust me, I’ve been through countless situations like this and I’m still here, aren’t I? I would never make you go through that pain again Angel, never. That is a promise I will go through hell to keep” I said solemnly.
“Please, trust me Angelina. Give me this chance to show you just how much you mean to me. Open your heart to me again and you will never regret it, I swear. Let me in, Angel. Let me be here for you, heal you, save you, and protect you. Let me in and make me feel whole. Let me taste heaven without actually dying by being with you. Just let me in and stop fighting your heart’s desires”
Everything I just said to her came directly from my soul. I was wide open for her, all out, my cards were open and I was just waiting to see what was in her hand…or rather in her heart.