After Divorce: Loved by the Secret Billionaire CEO

Chapter 151 Because it smells like you

Rachel's POV

"What are you doing here?"

Those were the first words that came out of Ethan's mouth as soon as he opened the door.

My heart sank at the harshness of his voice, but I bared it, (Not as if there was any other thing I could do) and smiled.

"I'm sorry."

There was more, so much more I wanted to say, but that can only be possible if Ethan didn't shut the door on me, which he looked to be at the verge of doing... So I couldn't beat around the bush.

"I'm sorry for doubting you ". My head hang down low in guilt, and I stared at the floor, fiddling with my fingers.

Apologizing was not really one of my strengths.

"I'm sorry for not trusting you, I'm sorry for blaming you, I'm sorry for..."

The rest of my long planned apology all went back into my throat when Ethan leaned down and slammed his thin lips on mine.

I was surprised at first, but didn't think much of it.

It was thinking that got me into this mess, why would I think now?

My hands went to the top of his collar, and I dragged him down lower while standing on my tip toes to kiss him even better.

I was not short, actually I was taller than other woman... But Ethan was really tall, almost like a giant fanning over my thing frame.

One of his hands creeped onto my waist, while the other cupped my cheeks as he brought my face closer.

Ethan broke the kiss when he noticed I was out of air, and I felt immediately sad.

' Seriously Rachel, do you want to die because of lack of breath just because you want to keep kissing him? '

Ethan looked breathtakingly handsome, with his slightly flushed cheeks and now red lips... It made me want to kiss him again despite the fact that I was heaving for air myself.

Ethan rubbed his thumb gently on my cheeks and my face leaned in to his touch. " You look amazing right now "

My face flushed pink and I bit my lips looking away shyly.

" Don't I always ".

I could still feel Ethan's intense gaze on me." Yeah you do "

I blinked, snapping my head back to him.

I really didn't expect him to say that.

" I'm sorry". I said after a few seconds staring straight at him.

Ethan took back his hands and my face instantly felt the loss of their warmth.

" Are you really?" He asked as he sat down on his bed staring at me skeptically.

Did he not believe me?

I felt disappointed, but hey... This was my fault.

" I am ". I nodded pursing my lips. " I should have just heard your explanation, and shouldn't have gotten angry with you like that. And also with Marina... "

All the accusation I laid on Marina came back to me and I shook my head feeling even more guilty.

" She only just wanted the best for me because I'm very sure she knows about your feelings, actually I'm sure everyone else knew but me... You were right. I was paranoid "

If there was one thing I hated to do the most, was the take the blame for something.

I hated movies where the girl was like

' It's all my fault, I'm so sorry ' for every single thing, even stuffs that she had no connection with.

But this was different, I was at fault.

" I'm sure Marina isn't angry at you because of that anymore. She is literally the best friend you came ever have "

" Hey... " I groaned with a small chuckle. " Are you saying I'll never have friends? "

Ethan just shurgged and I blinked.

He was serious, and right.

Marina was literally the most amazing friend I had ever gotten. Despite all my tantrums and how many times I flared up, she was always still there.

'How the hell did David and Martha manage to convince me to ditch her before? ' I wondered biting my lower lips.

" But it really was my fault though... "

" Nah, it's mine". He cut me short, standing up and walking towards me. " If I had just told you how I felt earlier everything would have been much more easier ".

" But I shouldn't have gotten angry at you and assumed the worst like that. It was just that... The thought Lana managed to steal another person from me... I just couldn't bare it. "

Ethan lips pulled up in a mischievous smirk. " So you were jealous? " He asked wiggling his brows.

I giggled shaking my head. " Hell no ".

I would never admit it!

" You were not? " One of his brows went up and I groaned.

He was literally tempting me to admit it. Something I would never do.

" No ". I insisted dodging him and collapsing on his bed.

It was then I noticed how beautiful his room was designed. Unlike how I thought it would be, dark and cold and lonely, his room was way better.

His room was in a dark color of blue, with a few paintings here and there, it was beautiful.

Unlike mine, his bed was arranged in the middle, and there was not much stuffs.

" Your room is beautiful". I said still looking around his room. "It's a bit bigger than mine. "

" Yeah..." He nodded walking towards me. " I prefer yours though ".

" Uh? Why?" I asked looking confused and he flashed me a smile.

"Because it smells like you ".

Never in my life did have I thought Ethan was capable of flirting... Of all things I thought wrong, this was the most surprising.

I looked away, as my cheeks blushed hard.

For fuck sake Rachel, you are no blushing bride... You can deal with a few compliments.

Ethan kept his gaze on me as he sat down on the bed.

" What?" I just had to ask when his stare became too intense, and obvious. " Do I have anything on my face?" I touched my face to check.

" No". Ethan shook his head slightly, still keeping his blue orbs on me. " You are just so beautiful ".

I blinked multiple times, checking if I heard him well.

Wow... He has gotten so bold.

" Seriously, is it just now you're realizing that? "

" I've always known, just found it a bit difficult to tell you without accidentally revealing my feelings for you. "

My brows knitted together in confusion. " Why didn't you want me to know? If I had none of these would be happening ".

No of these would really have been happening.

I would have never doubted him after seeing him with Lana... Actually that sounded wrong, I would probably still have doubted him. But maybe, just maybe I wouldn't have gone to the Andrew manor, though Lana may still die, I wouldn't he accused of the murder.

"I was afraid you would reject me and run away".

"Reject you?" I snorted rolling my eyes. " Who kicks a gift horse in the mouth? "

" Even if I had no feelings for you, there was no way I would rejected you. You are a far better and more handsome catch than David, how can you even say that?... Tsk". I scoffed.

Ethan lips began to slowly move upwards, and I stared skeptically at him.

Why was he so...

Then it dawned on me what I had just said.

Not only did I indirectly admit I had feelings for him, I also told him he was handsome... Fuck?