radicalducati Chapter 154 Going to Italy
Chapter 154 Going to Italy
Chapter 154 Going to Italy
Lu Mingfei was taken aback. Had he ever lost the most important person in his life?
The answer is undoubtedly yes.
And there are too many.
In fact, he lost not only important people, but... everything.
That's pretty much the extent to which we can say it.
Good or bad, love or hate, dislike or fondness, familiar or unfamiliar, things we can't let go of or reconcile with, drinking together.
Life, spanning several decades, is like a dream, an illusion.
Looking back, he found himself back in that little house, where he was playing StarCraft with someone on the computer.
The ending of the dream in the trench.
So many lives have vanished.
Nobody's coming back yet.
Everything is gone.
He actually refused to think about this matter all along.
Just like when he first came back, his first reaction was to check on fate.
In fact, too many things flashed through his mind at that moment.
The most important one was not Yuan Shu or Yuan Shao, nor Cao Cao or Liu Bei.
Or that scoundrel Sima Yi.
She wasn't even Princess Qinghe.
It was his children.
His flesh and blood, the continuation of his life.
Even now, he rarely recalls, or rather, resists recalling, all of this.
He only remembered that these children existed, but he was unwilling to recall the details of his time with them.
It's not that he doesn't love them.
It's because he loves them too much.
When Lu Mingfei realizes that they may never appear in his life again, he experiences a state of emotional dissociation.
It's not even sadness, but dissociation.
Fortunately, Constantine only looks like his son and isn't actually his son, since the other party doesn't know him.
Otherwise, he really couldn't accept all of this.
He gave them all his love, which made him somewhat weak even when facing fate.
Love and hate were locked in a struggle within him, and he wanted to die in the fight against fate, regardless of everything.
But he also feared that after his death his children would be exposed to divine will.
Even though his children are all quite old.
Even though he's almost a grandfather.
But he still stubbornly treated them as children.
They presumptuously protected them with a doting, almost obsessive, affection.
It even made Lun'er a bit obsessive, and even a bit like his mother.
She almost corrupted Kang'er.
Only his two little daughters were enough to ease his worries.
But no matter what, he could no longer see them.
He lost them.
But he couldn't say it.
With whom could he share his deep sorrow? No one. The distorted history of the Three Kingdoms could only be buried deep in his heart, never to be known by anyone.
Lu Mingfei looked into Caesar's icy blue eyes, remained silent for a moment, and then spoke.
No, if I had to say, my parents left me when I was very young, but they didn't die. My mother even sent me a loving letter a while ago.
He spoke as if he had just thought of something.
"Oh, so it seems I'm quite happy, haha."
Upon hearing this, Caesar simply looked at Lu Mingfei calmly.
He is different from what the public imagines of him.
In fact, Caesar was adept at analyzing other people's emotions from their facial expressions and voices.
This was for his mother.
She was a woman whose health was declining because of giving birth to her.
His partner became deaf after giving birth to him, so he learned sign language.
The other person was becoming increasingly unable to move, so he took care of them.
Since the other person couldn't even see, he could only analyze his mother's emotions through the micro-expressions on her face.
So he's very good at this.
Therefore, he is a seasoned player in the dating scene, and he can read a woman's expression no matter what she looks like.
That's why he failed with Nono.
Even though Lu Mingfei hides it well, he can still see Lu Mingfei's expression and sense his feelings.
The other party has lost something very important.
But since the other party doesn't want to talk about it right now, there's no need for him to ask any more questions.
Caesar always thought he was a person with high emotional intelligence.
So he picked up his wine glass.
"Alright, let's not continue this topic. Mingfei, are you interested in Italy? How about a trip?"
What's going on?
Just a moment ago we were having a serious conversation about our closest relatives, and now it's turned into a trip to Caesar's hometown?
It feels like one second DI0 was high after sucking Joseph's poison, and then a middle-aged man with a full head of white hair walks by and asks to play Gwent.
Then the vampire went to play Gwent.
Are all the people at this school so abrupt in their speech? Angers! Look what a terrible start you've set!
Fortunately, Caesar provided an explanation to Lu Mingfei.
"Do you remember our promise? Horse riding, racing, drinking. I built a venue specifically for this, and it was recently completed. I'm really looking forward to your arrival."
But Lu Mingfei still had some doubts.
"You want me to keep my promise just for this?"
"Wow, then I am indeed very interested."
"You could say that, but there are other reasons as well."
"What is it?"
Still straightforward, still dialogue with the Trisolarans, still digging to the bottom.
Fortunately, Caesar was also a Trisolaran.
In fact, he could get along with Cao Cao to some extent.
Lu Mingfei had worked under Boss Cao for many years, so his understanding of Cao Cao was quite profound.
Cao Cao's most prominent trait was his freedom.
It's so free it's almost comical.
Say whatever comes to mind, do whatever comes to mind.
Completely disregarding anyone's opinion, he could bark like a dog in front of all the civil and military officials, and he could wield his whip recklessly in front of everyone.
This is all because he is free.
Of course, this doesn't mean that Caesar would bark like a dog or brandish his whip.
It's not because he says that he is also a free person.
Freedom to face one's true self, freedom to speak one's mind directly.
Take now, for example.
"Actually, I haven't thought it through yet, so I thought I'd take you with me first, and we'll talk about it when I've made up my mind."
"oioioi! Caesar, I'm not here as a guard. I'm about to go home. Let me tell you, this big villa, Chu Zihang just installed a new computer for me, I'm planning to play on it for a whole vacation."
Lu Mingfei suddenly became lively, and his speech had an inexplicable anime feel to it.
Actually, Caesar got a little nervous when the topic turned to his large villa.
How big can your villa be? Come to my estate and I'll give you a piece of land. Anyway, Gattuso can carve up his things without a care.
But there was no solution for the second half of the sentence.
The newly installed computer isn't the main point; it's also for playing games.
If Lu Mingfei said he wanted it, the Gattuso family would buy him a game company and a server to play computer games, just to befriend him.
Unfortunately, this computer was assembled by Chu Zihang, so it's a different story.
There are many things in this world that can be bought with money.
But not everything can be bought with money.
For example, you could pay Chu Zihang to install the computer for you.
Caesar was at a loss. He looked at Lu Mingfei, thought for a moment, and then spoke.
"It's alright, I'll arrange your schedule. It won't take more than a week in total."
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